Over And Over Again

IM BACK .

2008-07-29T23:17:00.000-07:00

So with persistant reminding and prodding from Annisa ,I have decided to restart my blogger ..for now (; So feel special ! ahah so school's been pretty okay and tiring .And yeaaaaahhh . so yes I guess that's it for now Oh and Singfest is on Saturday !

signed sealed delivered ./

2008-03-01T02:17:00.000-08:00

okay so yeah I'm really for not updating for a REALLY LONG TIME .haha I've been really busy what with school ,Dance and tuition and stuff .ahaha Things have been clearing up lately ,I was quite high yesterday .I kept jumping and skipping around school while singing YMCA and Under The Sea ..yeah don't ask me why it was just stuck in my head .haha ,ANYWAYS I want to go for the Incubus gig mainly because Saosin is opening ...SAOSIN SAOSIN .the other day ,I kept writing Saosin on my notebooks and worksheets ahah .

I want to go for the Queen We Will Rock You musical ..I heard it was gnna be huge ,well of course considering the original Queen were like Legends .I want to go .haha ,school's been alrightay but of course it comes with its trials and tribulations and what not and sitting in between Jessica and Honami during Lit is actually quite fun .Jessica would be talking alot and then Honami would go 'Shut up Jessica you talk alot ' aha and then me and Jessica would make up some really funny remark about the lessons taught .Brightens the dull greyish day .

And I just noticed that this has been one of the happier posts in a very very long time .Like I said things are clearing up and I can actually look forward to something .

Wakeboarding on Sunday! Pictures to come (:

there will be an answer .

2008-02-17T23:12:00.000-08:00

You find another friend that you discard

This line stood out when I was listening to The Fray .I was blanking and then my ears pricked when I heard it .And somehow it kinda applied in my case .I hate to admit it but I think I'm losing my friends .Whenever I'm down it's usually because of this .I lie and smile and say that I'm okay . Promises are just like a pencil drawing one moment it's there and the next thing you know it's all erased . I just don't know anymore. No ,I'm not blaming anyone here .I'm just trying to get this all out .But ,God I am losing my friends .Slowly but surely .

Even the simplest of gestures can mean a whole heck of things and can cause a day of unwanted emotions .I don't like losing any of you ,but it's happening and no matter how much I try to patch it all up ,I feel awkward around all of you now .I would love to turn back time but it's too late .

no matter what ,I still do love you guys Shriveena ,Min ,Gayle ,Nini ,Chloe ,Afiqah ie) the norbits .2007 -?

Tomorrow's bio and mt good luck .

Listening to :Let it be -The Beatles
Feeling :Remorse

Radar

2008-02-14T22:04:00.000-08:00

Today was Valentine's Day ,love is a many splendoured thing ...yeah right I believe you .Anyways thank you Shriveena ,Shalyn ,Serene ,Gillian ,Gabrielle [get well soon! ] ,Megan and other people whom I forgot for your presents (: It kinda lifted my spirits . But it went spiraling downward from there . Anyways small gestures can mean and say lots of things .whatever ,anyways I'm hoping for the best tomorrow .Had a heart-to-heart talk with Sharon and a pretty hilarious one with Sophie (: Thanks .Happy Valentines Day [is ending in 2 hours]

you've come a long way .

2008-02-09T01:02:00.000-08:00

So ,I was just thinking where would I be in 5 to 10 years time . I have doubts about my future ,I don't think I'll be as good or great as everyone would think I would and can be .Sorry but I think I can be such a failure at times .But on the otherhand when I dare to dream ,I see myself as being successful .I don't know .let's see what time will do .please be kind .exams are coming ,I've been studying and stuff I CAN DO THIS .urgh dfhnowiclvmwerogvnvselkmvws / stress relieve please .

teenage queen

2008-02-03T22:14:00.000-08:00

dad's going for Police tomorrow with his guest .
I think that's awesome hahah .
I think I'll skip the Perth trip during June and go for Scotland one ,but if i go for both I won't be here for one whole month .But then again ,that's not a bad thing either . I don't know .sigh sigh .things have been bothering me for the last few days .And I havent really been able to talk it out with anyone properly .geez .I've decided to start on a diary . feel like writing everything out .story-writing on hiatus .mondays mondays mondays ,need I say more ?

bolt the doors ,

2008-01-31T23:22:00.000-08:00

weeeho . to go or not to go ,that is the question .
school could be better ,
my friends ..I wish it was like last year .
me ,I could be better .
people are starting to test my nerves

I can do this .

we let the fire just bathe us yeah ./

2008-01-27T14:18:00.000-08:00

I'm very upset .Thanks ,alot

are you sure?

2008-01-24T22:20:00.000-08:00

I wasn't in school today ,down with bad bad bad bad cramps .Talked to min ,dom ,gayle I wasn't much of a mood today .I tried making myself and everyone else feel better but to no avail. I suck-eth ,sounds very Shrek 3 haha yeah okay bad joke .I just hope everything will be better tomorrow ,give me something to look forward to at least .sighs ,the world is turning upside down

Don't look back ,you can never look back

2008-01-23T22:33:00.000-08:00

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ,i can pull through! i need a good scream .i can pull through ,i can i can i can i can .I CAN ..phewwwwwwww .okay yes i can and I WILL . :)

goodbye old friend

2008-01-13T23:01:00.000-08:00

Goodbye .One of the most hardest words one could ever say .I'll elaborate more next time eh? Now,I have to get back to English Assignments .oh gee ,don't I love school especially when it comes together with the Monday Blues .Shopping to do ,places to be and Things to do .how un-busy can it get .urgh

even the best fall down sometimes ,

2008-01-12T14:13:00.000-08:00

Beauty World on Thursday was ..the best ! Me ,Allyson and some other people were standing and cheering at the end .It was really good and for most of it I kept holding on to Natasha at the sweet/romantic parts .If you have not watched it yet ,you're a fool .

Quality time with Shriveena ,thanks Shriveena for listening (: Alot of people pon-ed on Friday ,so thanks . hint hint Aisyah ,Hui Min ,Chloe and the rest hahah . But yeah anyways .English to complete by Monday [Big sigh] .It just keeps getting worse day by day .Posts are getting shorter and shorter each .Tuition at 5 family gathering after that (: yesness .hahaha .Afiqah 's birthday is coming up .Present present .I shall go shopping hahaha .

I'm making it through

2008-01-08T05:58:00.000-08:00

Yeah, you've been alone
I've been gone for far too long
But with all that we've been through
After all this time I'm coming home to you

Never let it show
The pain I've grown to know
’Cause with all these things we do
It don't matter when I'm coming home to you

I reach towards the sky I've said my goodbyes
My heart's always with you now
I won't question why so many have died
My prayers have made it through yeah
’Cause with all these things we do
It don't matter when I'm coming home to you

school's been okay so far ,though I wasn't really in the mood to go at all today but i made it ,miracle .I've been waiting for Avenged Sevenfold's new video to come out .Been so drained out for the past few days and I need an early night .So far nothing much of interest has been happening so my life since school started has been quite bland .

my mood could do better ,sometimes I wonder what it would be like if all of us couldn't think so deeply that everynight we'd be left awake till 2 am staring at the ceiling and the other part of your mind is telling you to sleep as shove everything out

you're not the same .

2008-01-05T19:17:00.000-08:00

Today was the CCA Fair ,so I was in charge of a sec 1 class with Nurul ,and I can tell you how ..nevermind .Anyways ,woke up at 6 something went to school by 7.20 and left school at 12 and now we have a new CCA ,NCDCCA {National Civil Defence Cadet Corps} which I would've joined if I could have .After that left for Afiqah's house with Allyson and just as I was about to play Guitar Hero 3 ,my parents came .

I'm drained ,to say the least .Aston Villa 's gonna play Man United later on .To watch or not to watch ? or should I just stick to my homework .Homework .new year ,new start and I guess I'll be looking forward to being someone different ,in a better sense. Late night talks with Min-sterrr are the best (: I didn't see Shriveena today :( Working with Gillian ,Nurul ,Zaharah ,Carmen ,Dalia and the rest was awesome today ..right Nurul ? [hint hint ]

we used to say .

2008-01-02T18:31:00.000-08:00

first day of school today ,was kinda hectic since the Councillor duties kicked in today. Well ,it's a start .I was pretty much happy when I saw Min ,Gayle ,Shriveena ,Chloe ,Melanie ,Allyson (: haha yeah It's not gnna be the same anymore but I guess we'll all manage somehow .Saw Danial and someone on the way back home .And I spent the rest of the day sleeping seeing as how I couldn't get much shut eye the night before . Lessons start tomorrow ,arrrgghhh holidays were too short .

I'll try to keep this blog up and running and get it updated as much as I can this year. It's gonna be one hell of a year .

just giving you a small taste.

2008-01-01T15:56:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year everyone (: Went out to Esplanade to watch the fireworks display with my cousins and their guest .While the display was going on my cousin was making remarks to either irritate everyone or just for the fun of it . haha it was hilarious though . The whole thing took about 8 minutes and I just spent the whole time taking pictures though I admit they're not that nice .2007 was really memorable in most ways I guess .

There was Oliver Twist with the class

My birthday in Batam aha /

The time when I was obssessed with free hugs .

The fashion design thingy .

Valentine's Day with zeeee frienzzz

The Young Lions match I was at {we won}

Fete De La Danse (:

The My Chem gig (:

and new year's

these are just a few highlights of the past year .cheers everyone!

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE GIG!

2007-12-13T00:40:00.000-08:00

so yes ,the My Chemical Romance gig , was reaalllllyyy awesome .Nothing so far ,comes close to it .Nicole and I met up at Afiqah's house and left there at around 3.15 pm and headed for Max Pavillion and lined up and then I found out we were in the wrong que so we went to the Que-JumpA que and waited and we waited for Min to come ahaha and eventually she came and we went into the arena and we waited and waited and waited .

So when the gig evetually kicked started everyone was chanting MCR MCR MCR and Gerard began to sing and whoa ,his eyes ...were very hypnotizing haha . And after every few songs he would say 'Let me see your faces again ' or and everyone would go wild .I was right in front with Nicole ,Afiqah and Min but we all got seperated and I ended up in the middle .Gerard was awesome okay , he was saying at the start 'If you see anyone fall pick them up ,this is serious I don't care if you're having fun you pick them up understand? 'and the crowd went wild I tell you.

Mikey was so hyper shaking his head left and right ahaha ,Frank was like crazily nodding and all WAHH SHIOK MAN .Gerard pretended to ride a horse damn funny .Anyways all in all one word AWESOME(:

~~VIDEOS~~ i removed the videos cause it was covering the tagboard ask me if you wanna see them! AND PICS!

I have more picstures but being me I'm too lazy to upload (; laterrrrrr

oui

2007-12-06T01:58:00.000-08:00

IMMM BAAAAACKKK PICTURES WILL BE UP SOON(;

I believe I'll find peace in the afterlife

2007-11-26T22:54:00.000-08:00

R.I.P CASEY of Hawthorne Heights
I'm not running away ,been fighting this so long
such a price that we pay ,we gotta be strong

He will be remembered

2007-11-25T23:14:00.000-08:00

R.I.P REUBEN KEE
We're dwelling in the drastic signs
Another way to numb our minds ;and as you close
your eyes tonight and pray for a better life

oh hello ,dolly

2007-11-25T20:53:00.000-08:00

3 weddings today .I am damn exhausted the 2 of the weddings were like on the other side of the island . So yeah ,talks with Gayle and Min sigh we need to conference soon .Theres too much too be talked about right now ahah .I feel the constant need to go out with friends instead of lazing around at home but being me it would take a crane to lift myself from bed to get to the phone to call people up .

I've heard this life is overated

2007-11-25T01:14:00.000-08:00

Today ,my dad bought me a camera :) But ,yeah he and I will be using it but of course I'll be using it most of the time hurhurhur .I'm very happy .So as I was saying in the last post ,council camp was tres awesome bonded muchos with my team ESTO .I can tell you we're one of the most bonded team there ever was ,well in my opinion at least we are .

We couldn't stop laughing most of the time cause of my corny jokes ,oh well .I had loads of fun and especially loved the friendship dance .haha oh and I gave people nicknames eyyyy I'm Ne-yong ,Anissa was Neh-mind ,Filzah was Sotong ,Celeste was Popiah ,Trina was Tom Yam ,Samantha was Ayam haha and so on and on and there was also BBQ Pit ,Spring Roll ,Pisang ,Bawang [Allyson] and Nainika was Loh Mai Kai haha.

The ex-cos were awesome and I wanna thank Sophie ,Sharon ,Su Fern and the rest for the encouragement and notes of comfort (: I really appreciate it and thanks for taking the time and trouble to organise the whole camp(:

Min called me today .I had a short talk with her eyyyyy I feel that I haven't spoken to her in ages .sigh ,holidays are killing me somehow .

Scrreeeaaaaaaammmm .

2007-11-24T13:34:00.000-08:00

I love council camp ! It was damn fun :) will elaborate laterrrrrrr I'm exhausted now and I have tuition work to do): haha

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2007-11-21T21:18:00.000-08:00

I care because ..... ?

Brompton Cocktail

2007-11-21T01:38:00.000-08:00

Pathetic .

The baddest in town ,

2007-11-20T10:50:00.000-08:00

Alright alright I'm back to update :) Last night/Early this morning we and Gayle were watching spoofs of Avenged Sevenfold songs [Critical Acclaim and Almost Easy] They were damn effing funny .I couldn't stop laughing man hahah .They're really good (: Yeah and it was like 3 am in the morning I was laughing my ass off .haha My mum woke up yeaaah .haha and yeah that's what I do during holidays. Slack and watch crap [good crap] ahah and sleep late wake up when half the day is gone .

And now,I'm watching A Shot At Love With Tila Tequila hmmm ,you guys should check it out .hhah it gets way too dramatic and its only like the 6th episode .hur .Camp on thursday ,I have not packed a single thing.eyarrrr .

Eyes over easy

2007-11-18T02:29:00.000-08:00

The next CD that I have to get from Cobra Starship i Viva La Cobra! .Went to Gramaphone and they still don't have it yet .Guess I'll hafta wait a little longer for this one :\ hmmm ,officially 23 more days to My Chemical Romance gig ,4 more days to Council Camp .yeahur .I'm loving the self-titled Avenged Sevenfold album .And just for plain randomness ,Zacky V's eyes are beautiful :) haha .

Two nights in a row I've been at the beach with my family and yeah it's been great fun catching up and bonding .yeah I'm a family person ,they're what means the most to me .I shall work out tomorrow .I missed Lime Sonic Bang yet again this yr .bummer eh ,SDF was thr and so was SL .great music right there .oh yeah and Astroninja .anyways here's some quick bites before I leave ;

1.My finger nails are long .
2.I need to trim them .
3.Nini's birthday party is on the 8th of Dec .
4.I can't get Avenged Sevenfold 's Dear God out of my head .
5.Band/s of the moment -A7X ,MCR ,Cobra Starship ,Cinematic Sunrise :}
6.Tuition on Monday :|
7.Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired ;I'm missing you again A7X <3

A word to the wise

2007-11-17T19:58:00.000-08:00

I NOW OWN AVENGED SEVENFOLD'S NEW ALBUM hurhurhur ,yay me .My mum gave in to my annoying pleading and bought me their newest album.sweet .I am loving it ,haha it comes with a DVD and A7X are one of the best bands ever .Speaking of bands ,music and whatnot ,the My Chemical Romance gig is less than a month away 24 more days to be exact .I am waaaay excited .GerardRayBobMikeyFrank ! But I heard Bob broke his arm or wrist or something ,so let's hope he'll be able to make it for the gig in Singapore(:

And now I'm wishing A7X would head back down to Singapore again ,I didn't get to catch them at Singfest this year .a great Bummer there .

Class BBQ was the awesome-st (:

The only thing I ask of you is

2007-11-16T02:17:00.000-08:00

Things have been a little ho-hum lately ,at times I don't know whether to feel happy or sad .Misconceptions and misinterpretations of words can have such a drastic effect on some ie) me .Holidays haven't been much of a liberation of thought for me ,in fact it comes across as a burden which I appreciate at times but can do without it most of the time . Holidays often bring about a sense of something amiss and negativity for me .Oh well ,such is life I guess .

But sometimes ,I just can't help but think that I am such a disappointment which is true ,I guess to a certain extent .I feel so insecure about my future and whatnot .

On a lighter note ,the class BBQ today was great .I missed my gfs so much ,haha it was good to catch up on things .And pushing people into the pools and private talk between a group of us seemed to be the highlight of the day .I'll be uploading pictures on another day ,seeing that I can't really be bothered to right now . 2 hours of A maths tomorrow ..major groan

Too many people to ache over .

2007-11-13T01:41:00.000-08:00

Me, Min and Gayle with our bad Sec 1 hair .friends that last(;

THHHAAAAAAAANNNNNKKKKKSSSSSSSS MINNNNNN!!!!!! The moment I hung up ,I couldn't stop jumping and screeching for like 5 minutes ahhhhhhhhhrrrghhhhhh (: It really made my day lah Min (: I will bow and kiss yr feet okaay! ahaha

I looked through some old pictures that I had with me ,and it really reminded me of all the ups and downs I've gone through with my family and friends .The important thing is just to move on ,no matter what it takes . Looking at those three pictures ,I didn't know then that we could be very close now .Haha ,remember the stalker from Suntec? aahah yeah .Anyways ,here's to more years of friendship with my best friends and I don't care if we had bad pictures from Sec 1 haha .

GAYLE MIN SHRIVEENA NICOLE AFIQAH ALLYSON SHALYN SHIMEI NINI MELANIE CHLOE

You know that I can't see the timid marking now

2007-11-12T02:28:00.000-08:00

Me,Aisyah and Diana

Photos were taken eons ago ,like last year ?yeah haha I miss those times so much man .Where it was really simple ,anyways I really miss my five musketeers(: I'm missing the gfs from school .Midnight conversations over the phone with Min are the best .MSN convos with Shriveena and Gayle are brief but very funny .And talking about Shakira with Faiyaz is a little weird because Shakira is not my area of expertise haha.

Cinematic Sunrise has been sparking interest in me all over again ,so is Gun N Roses :) argh .Math is killing me ,but I'll come out alive eventually .ahah I will survive . Anyways ,late nights need to be a thing of the past because I usually wake up around 10-12 and one whole half of th day is gone .So yeah ,and I get really sleepy at about 4 in the afternoon .The timing has gone a little hooha .

IMISSYOU GAYLE SHRIVEENA HUIMIN CHLOE AFIQAH NICOLE NINI MELANIE SHIMEI

Ytd 11/11 was S's birthday ,HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY S:)

Well ,if you wanted honesty that's all you had to say

2007-11-09T02:44:00.000-08:00

one phrase ,and that's all it took for it to linger on my mind . I am sick and tired of having to choose ,of being someone everyone else expects me to be .What is it with the world ? friends choose between other friends .Studies over the easy way out . I feel like I'm being glassed up and I'm drawing in my last few breaths till I can no longer hold on. Is everything I do wrong in your eyes? Sometimes I feel like I should give up and sometimes I carry on just to prove people wrong .

So yes ,maybe I had just too much time on my hands and started getting all negative but things have really started pissing me off recently .And I'm not going to pretend like it's all okay .No ,I'm not .

Pretend you don't see her

2007-11-08T03:46:00.000-08:00

Truthfully ,I am sick of everything .So for the next few days,if I choose to ignore you ,give you the cold shoulder or avoid you ,then I'm really sorry .Because I can't take people throwing everything to me sometimes .

3 more days .
6 more days .

See you people then .

Let's go dance around in the rain

2007-11-06T02:40:00.000-08:00

Staying up late ,has developed into a habit .Going around to classes has been a chore , well most of the time anyways .And I can't wait to get out with Allyson :) Certain things have got me thinking a lot for the past few days or so ,but I can't be bothered with them right now though .And now my ankle hurts ,due to me running around in a rush. But yeah like I said I can't really be bothered with it now .

Night are spent talking with Min and Dom /Chloe /Gayle etc etc.And most night when I have nothing to do ,I end up staring at the blardy laptop screen as if I was waiting for it to talk to me or something.So yeah ,if anyone want to go out anytime this week or whenever preferably this week ,as I am awesomely bored [har sarcasm] ;Call me or text message me . And dear chloe ,CHEER UP ! remember what I told you! Class chalet on the 15-16 th .Way awesome ,I really missed sec 203,07 . You'll never find another class like us ,although we were quite foolish to only start bonding at the end of the school term.

Anyways,I've noticed a couple of things while lying on the floor and talking on the phone .I've been solving other people's problems ,I mean yeah I know friends are always there for you and stuff but sometimes after I'm done with the conversation ,that's the end of it .Nothing else ,I can't solve my own problems and yet my friends come to me ,now that I find funny .But ,I don't mind .

Apparently ,I look like shit right now .With constant reminders from Francesca to sleep more cause the lack of sleep is really showing .ahah.I guess I'll have to keep that in mind from now on.

two roads ,split off
from here and my life goes
running in opposite directions .
Exaggerating the barrier between
who I am and who I want to be .

Headlines

2007-11-04T02:29:00.000-08:00

Midnight conversations with Hui Min and Dominic are the best .We can come up with the weirdest things to laugh at .Hahah just now ,they started laughing because i was whispering utter nonsense and then I had them in fits of laughter because of how I laughed and because I sounded really weird and I couldn't stop . And Dominic was a total blur king when Min joined the conversation .Hands down .

Yes ,I do happen to have a busy day ahead of me on Monday a.k.a Mournday .First I have to get up early in the morning for choreography from 9 till 11 .Go home and rest tuition starts at 3 and ends at 7 ,yes this time it will be for four hours due to a head start learning of Additional Mathematics groan .Home for an hour and ballet at 8.45 till 10 .joy me ,I'll be busy .note the sarcasm here Who invented maths .nevermind ,I have to learn to love Maths .But ,dear maths you're making it so hard for me to love you right now especially when you're 'entertaining' me with 4 whole hours of sums ,algebraic equations ,indices so on and so forth . Stop laughing at me Min and Dominic .(:

I am practically going at a snail's pace for Sec 3 E Maths ,don't laugh okay it takes awhile to get used to all the formulas .urghhh. Anyways ,the picture above was taen a long long long time ago ,during Oliver Twist at the beginning of the year .yes ,still naive and part innocent .then again, maybe not .

Watching Arsenal draw up with Manchester United ,not good .Manchester United could've wiped the stupid smirks off Arsene Wenger's face and could've won the match if there wasn't 3 minutes added.But ,it was a fair fight to a certain extent ,I guess and both sides played really well especially Fabregas ,Ronaldo ,Rooney and Anderson did leave a certain impression on me .A good one that is .

This may never start,
tearing out my heart
and I'd be yr memory

Your ability to become my perfect enemy.

2007-11-03T01:33:00.000-07:00

And I can't help but think my life is over .

Jack O Lantern .

2007-11-02T15:08:00.000-07:00

So I headed to Afiqah's house to get dressed and get my make up done with her there.

Halloween was awesome in so many ways .It started out a little dry and dull at first but when there were some of us left along with International school boys ,we went to the karaoke room while Megan ,Nikkie ,Chris ,Zain ,Shalyn ,Vanessa and company went to the favourite haunt joint ,Old Changi Hospital .I'm sure they had alot of fun there .

So back to the Karaoke room ,we were like singing our hearts to Spice Girls [cringe] ,Ciara ,The Bealtes and other songs by Kanye and 50 cent ahah .Chloe started going crazy and started throwing the cushion on our faces and stuff so that all our make up would smudge . I ,on the other hand started drinking too much coke from the bottles and started to get hyper and went on to throw sweets at Claudette's cousin Hiri ,just for the fun of it . Henry was really funny ,he started singing Britney's Do Something in this really weird noise and had everyone in the room clutching their stomachs in uncontrollable fits of laughter .Then he started singing Led Zeppelin and then it really started to get funny

We were singing our lungs out and my throat really hurts now ahaha .And then the hostess came in and I started making fun of the way she daid 'You want to sign or pay cash?' it sounded like you want to sound or pay casssh She left her lips in this really weird way and I kept making fun of it in the cab with Claudette and Hiri .haha anyways pictures.

The supposedly Dead Beatles fan.

we are,we are the monsters.

The Living Dead .

In a town we call home,we all hail to the pumpkin soul.

Gayle says;Look into my eyesssss.

Too much sugar can do this.

oh ,yes.

2007-10-31T02:08:00.000-07:00

I'm beginning to have this daily obsession of having to listen to Matchbox 20's How far we've come .Not that I mind that much but it's like engraved into my mind . haha right .Anyways I'm pretty much feeling awesome about tomorrow's party .Min called at about 1am plus just now so we talked and talked till I heard something drop in the kitchen then the dogs in my neighbour's house started barking then for a minute everything went silent and I started to freak out a little ahah. Right now ,Shriveena might have called me fool or stupid or something .

I guess I'll be typing and typing till I get sick of it or something because I am in no mood to sleep right now and holidays are the time when I get too much time to think and things tend to change for the worse .So ,I'll have to keep myself busy somehow .

I believe the world is burning to the ground.

2007-10-30T23:22:00.000-07:00

PLEASE MR. POSTMAN IS ORIGINALLY BY THE BEATLES,
NOT THE CARPENTERS

geez get it right for once.

Come what may.

2007-10-30T00:02:00.000-07:00

In approximately 8 hours I would have to wake up for choreography in school with Mr Zaki .As much as I am eager about dancing again ,I'm more of less to lazy to wake up in the morning especially during the holidays .But ,I guess this is what dance is all about .You've got to push yourself till your body aches and your toes are all numb from blisters and cuts .When there is pain ,you know that you've worked hard .And that's also a bad thing .haha. But afterall ,no pain ,no gain .Aren't I the most cliche person you know?haha

Anyways ,persistent occurrence of very weird dreams that leave me feeling quite blissed/happy but somewhat disappointed in the morning . I am in need of chick flicks for entertainment ie) The Nanny Diaries ,I want to watch it again .Mostly because Chris Evans looks way you know ,hot in there compared to Fantastic Four .

Not much has been going on for me these past few days so ,the awesome Halloween update will come after Wednesday.

Here comes the sun

2007-10-29T01:11:00.000-07:00

Your 2005 Song Is

Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day

"My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating"

In 2005, you bummed everyone out. Like you care.

What Hit Song of 2005 Are You?

Your Bumper Sticker Should Be

Anything worth taking seriously - is worth making fun of

What Bumper Sticker Should Be On Your Car?

Your Taste in Music:

90's Alternative: Highest Influence
Adult Alternative: Highest Influence
Alternative Rock: High Influence
Classic Rock: High Influence
Heavy Metal: Medium Influence

How's Your Taste in Music?

So yes ,majorly bored right now .Money collecting and people visiting kept on the minimal but they've been okay . Halloween's coming up and it's going to be awesome .
Life has been a bore somehow , and my cousin and sister are watching what I write about over my shoulder .My cousin whom Madhan refers to as Hawaiian Pizza .yeaah. I'm starting to obsess over Frank Iero all over again .Hmmm zexy .

I think Matchbox 20's new video of their new hit How Far We've Come is really cool.haha .It really takes you through the different important events throughout history ,yes and I do realise I sound a little too nerdy .The video's neat it's all.Oh yeah , although this might sound a little out of point ; but i just have to say it .I have a Manchester United lamp which Aunty Katherine gave to me after her son Darren decided to discard it after the dismissal of David Beckham from Manchester United to Real Madrid .

we're running.

slow burn, let it all fade out and pull the curtain down

2007-10-28T00:20:00.000-07:00

If you were really sincere in apologising to Allyson and I ,you wouldn't have sent us each the same message now ,would you shalyn? Allyson and I are still not too sure about forgiving you eventhough most people try to play with the forgive and forget way .We no, I have had enough of that and seriously cannot be bothered with most things right now .Sure ,you say that you didn't mean all those things you said.But,it took me to barge into the class just to ask you to fuck off from Allyson to actually realise your mistake.

And even then ,you gave me that stupid smirk .I hate wasting time on people like you because as you can see and you already know my social life is already packed with activities and I'd rather get on with them than to ponder about you and the rest .Yes, I may seem like a bitch right now but I have every right to be ;after how badly you hurt Allyson .So seriously ,go and get your attitude and priorities right and don't use your temper as an excuse anymore Shalyn .

I'm done with this .I will not linger on this anymore ,what you do now is your problem and not mine .so have fun.

I walk the land but don't belong

2007-10-25T08:14:00.000-07:00

staring at the carnage,
praying that the sun will never rise.
Living another day in disguise
These feelings can't be right
Lend me your courage to stand up ;
and fight.

This world is a cruel place ,and we're here only to lose

2007-10-25T00:02:00.000-07:00

1.I can't wait to get out of Sec 203
2.My Chemical Romance ,here I come
3.Screw you lah.
4.Go Manchester United
5.I give up on friends
6.I am almost done with living
7.I want to forget half of everything that happened this year
8.It's just 2 more years till I'm out of here
9.Afiqah ,Allyson ,Gayle ,Shriveena ,Nicole ,Shimei ,Hui Min ,Razz ,Leezee :)
10.Carpe Diem
11.I will be on the down-low until school ends.
12.I hate school and the class sometimes.
13.EMDD Auditions on Friday
14.I'll throw all of these problems away on Halloween night.
15.where have they gone?

Hello ,I'm in Delaware

2007-10-24T16:14:00.000-07:00

I was in a bad mood today in school. Sad/Pissed I guess. So I just kinda distanced myself from almost everyone today and hung out with Afiqah ,Shimei and Nicole .I read Afiqah's fanfic ,it was really good. Not much done today ,at the end of the day we were watching Bring It On ,Again then I got really really tired so I lied down Marietta's lap then Gayle lied down on my leg ahaha.Chain reaction lah.ahhah

I'm just glad I got through today in one piece and I'm finally at home.

Art Of Noise vs Tom Jones

2007-10-24T00:15:00.000-07:00

okay,haha been listening to all the old songs like "My boyfriend's back" and "Kiss" ahah and not to forget The Beatles.

After school , went with Min to meet Dominic then we all went to Parkway Mac's with Min's friends Keith and some other people.Then William came and with all Min's friends I felt extra a bit lah but heck care .When Min heard Mark was coming we decided to go into Parkway walk awhile .Just as we were about to take a look at Ipods I saw Nicole then I shouted for her.Turns out she was with Afiqah and Shi Mei .EXCITING NEWS Afiqah already bought tickets for My Chemical Romance gig and she has four of them so me,Nicole and Min are going with her.awesome.MCR here i come(:

I will see you again ,a long time from now

2007-10-20T22:54:00.000-07:00

I'm back from camp. I feel majorly sad right now cause eventhough it was only 3 days and 2 nights, me and the class have grown so attached to amat and jess a.k.a mummy and pappi .haha yes the guy was the mummy and the girl is pappi ,very upside-down . Min and I cried after leaving camp. Mummy and Pappi ,the sec 203 Mamma-s will never forget you, you've been way to nice to us and you took us under your care and concern for 3 days and 2 nights .Tolerating our perverted mindsets and our constant need for a shower lol.
We apologise if we have disappointed you one too many times .we love you(:

Camp was the best eventhough we kept on getting reprimanded by camp chief and the other instructors .Kayaking with Olivia was the best ,we were like panicking and we were hitting the dragonboats that were 'parked' in the sea .But,it was fun .We managed to raft all in one line.Damn shiok . Then we had rock climbing ,unfortunately I did not make it all the way to the top but I was glad I tried .I was the bilayer or something like that ,I was the one controlling the ropes and made sure my babes were all safe.

Then we also had the high element activities ,I had to climb a very high wooden pole and walk across a very thin wire and back down again .We all put our trust into Amat mummy and all of made it across safely and then I belayed for the rest .

Camp fire was the best Daddy Izwan and Amat Mummy were so funny ,our class pulled off our cheer and performance and we did a very good job at it according to Mummy then we made our trainers do Buddha Claps cause they punished us with it also ahah so revenge
is sweet ain't it?hahah .i will forever love the sec 203 mamma-s ,Mummy and Pappi .It was really sad that sec 203 only managed to bond at the end of the year ,next year we'll be in different classes and it was all thanks to Mummy and Pappi we managed to bond .We love you .

Walking from East Coast to Changi was definitely worth it .The camp site's located just outside the aeroplane runway and so there were planes flying over the site every 1-5 minutes haha

Mamma-s

Pappi Jess and Mummy Amat

Mummy

Pappi

The best instructors

Daddy Izwan and Mummy Amat ahaha .

we asked him to take a class photo for us ,instead he took a picture of himself . self-obsessed haha

for all those times you stood by me ,
for all the truth that you made me see
for all the joy you brought to my life
for all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true.
For all the love I found in you,
I'll be forever thankful baby.
You're the one who held me up
and never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through it all

Mummy and Pappi are the best instructors ,period .we trust you(:

Bonnie and Clyde

2007-10-18T00:45:00.000-07:00

I was listening to The Beatles and a beatle flew onto my bed.

Maxwell's Silver Hammer

2007-10-17T19:44:00.000-07:00

which to bury? us or the hatchet? so yes,it's almost the end of the year and by next year ,people from 203 would be all divided into different classes and into different social cliques again. And Min told me just now that Victoria wants to make up .I did want to make up with her at one point too.But, I guess she was happier ,much happier with her new friends so I just let it be.And tried to forget about all the backstabbing that was done .

But then now when I think about last year and the early parts of this year ,I really kinda missed the times we had ,shouting random things in class ,singing victory songs for Manchester United and I really really missed them and I enjoyed them eventhough many hated us and thought we were attention seekers although all we were ever guilty of was having fun and being random .But then, along came the second semester of school when everything started to go wrong.

I got irritated with you easily and just really hated you for your attitude and the fact that I was being backstabbed so I just started ignoring you and it took you awhile to find out I was trying to get as far from you as possible. And I totally gave you the cold shoulder and I-don't-know-you attitude.

so now, Victoria Tan I'm waving my white flag and I'm apologising on my part. I want us to be friends again. It took Min to tell me everything. I really missed talking stupid things with you.Call me or tag or something if you read this .I know it's not a proper way to apologise but I'll talk to you tomorrow or something. I don't want fights anymore too and I know you don't want them too. It's not fair to Min and all too ,I or we or whatever ,pulled them into this and strained relationships.let's end this year on a good note?

be my ,be my baby

2007-10-17T15:38:00.000-07:00

There are only four people who know.

This morning I surprised Min and Gayle with sunflowers ,initially I brought one for Shriveena too but I stupidly placed it into my bag and most of the petals dropped off so I'm giving her another one next week ,after camp.I gave the Santi-s red carnations. fflooooweeerr day ahaha.Ms C came into our class during SC then she said
'You can do whatever you want ,you can read ,draw or play with your flower ,' then immediately everyone's heads turned to Gayle whom I think was like placing the sunflower into water.haha

Dear Shriveena,
cheer up bestaaay .I'm always here for you no matter what(:

I'm going for camp tomorrow, 3 days and 2 nights .I'm like in not much of a mood to camp .Nicole and Danielle are not going for the camp ,I was supposed to go for the basketball game with Claudette and Malcolm but I still have not packed for camp and Malcolm has strains on both his legs or something like that.I guess we're going to celebrate Chloe's birthday in camp so Chloe, HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY and watch out in camp, you may never what's coming from Min and the rest of us(:a

Anyways Dominic and Min ajak me Dominic's sister's fourth birthday and it will take me days to figure out what to buy for her. I've got till the 27th so yeaaahh.

I've gotta pack now .

alfredfrankierochrisevansronaldoDianAngraini.

haha.

People,they don't mean a thing to you.

2007-10-17T00:23:00.000-07:00

Coffee does not make me stay up late.It just gives me headaches.I shouldn't have taken any coffee at my Mom's cousin's place. I need more Mayday Parade or City and Colour during a headache ,not The Bravery.jibberish-
frankieroisstillthesex. passe

we can make it right

2007-10-16T21:00:00.000-07:00

Exam results were good(: Could've done better for Maths but I'm okay with the marks(:
Anyways ,after-school lunch with cousins are the shizzzz haha .Kak Nur and Abg Hilman really kinda cheered me up during lunch with the relatives. So after lunch went to their home..talked ,rot and slept for like half an hour and went to grandparent's place for awhile.

Parents are back from London!!! And they got me really awesome stuff .They got me THE BEATLES shirt, which I've been wanting for months already .Don't laugh okay,The Beatles were/are one of the greatest rock & roll bands .respect man.Mom got me a Laura Ashley blouse , a NEXT suit .My sister bought me knee-high socks and a black skirt for halloween and she also got me blue pumps.And I also got a dress ahah.too many things already.thanks mum,papa and kakak(:

Camp on the 18th. 3 days 2 nights.

Now that I've lost you ,it kills me to say

2007-10-15T01:00:00.000-07:00

Today was great ,at first I was too lazy to wake up and go house-visiting but for the sake of my Ipod Classic 80gig I needed to get up,get dressed and get going .So first went to grandparent's place ,it's like the assembling point or something every year haha.Then after a few hours went out with Wak Bhari's family .Really had fun with Kak Nur and Abang Hilman ,I was in a bad mood but they made it a-okaay in the end. Good to have some family around ya know.

More time with family tomorrow and going for Dad's guests birthday party which reminds me,I have yet to get a cake for her.darrrrnnn. what say you,chocolate okay?haha

so maybe,you're going to be the one that saves me

2007-10-14T01:06:00.000-07:00

Rules
1) Put your player on shuffle and write the title of the song that plays.

OPENING CREDITS : Vindicated-Dashboard Confessional
WAKING UP : Dead -My Chemical Romance
FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL :Disenchanted-My Chemical Romance
FALLING IN LOVE : Always-Bon Jovi [makes sense]
FIGHT SONG : Awake-Secondhand Serenade
BREAKING UP : Last Kiss-Pearl Jam
PROM : Apology-Alesana
LIFE : One More Moment-Ronin
MENTAL BREAKDOWN : Here We Go Again-Paramore
DRIVING :Makes me Wonder-Maroon 5
FLASHBACK : Jenny-The Click Five
WEDDING : Wait For You-Elliot Yamin
BIRTH OF CHILD : M.I.A -Avenged Sevenfold
FINAL BATTLE : One and Only-Teitur
DEATH SCENE : Long Time Coming- Oliver James
FUNERAL SONG : Best I Ever Had-Vertical Horizon

some of them made sense,the others don't at all. I am tres bored right now.And I feel like eating. So Hari Raya is finally here and yeah I celebrated it for the first time, sans my parents because as you know they're in london. They met up with my sister who came down from Scotland and met up with my uncle who lives in Birmingham.

So,more visiting distant relatives and money collecting tomorrow. I hope I won't be in a sucky mood like I was today .I was really in a bad mood and spent most of the day in my grandparent's house ,in their room ,sleeping. Away from everybody else.And I've noticed that every year during Hari Raya ,my mood really kills everything. I'm known for being anti-social with people I only see like a handful of times per year and I guess it doesn't create a good impression of myself because of my foul mood. ANNND ,because of that many people don't remember me and mistake me for being my elder sister.Or ,they'll just keep asking about her until it irritates me .Ask her yourself for goodness sakes.You can go waste your money talking to her on a long distace call instead of having to face sarcastic replies from me okay?

Min ,C is an asshole. you're better off with DKNy[:

you little spies

2007-10-13T17:40:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya ,Maaf Zahir dan Batin.
Here comes the money.
Be jealous Gaybot ahaha.

So when this is over don't blow your composure

2007-10-12T22:08:00.000-07:00

smile like you mean it.

what he don't know ,won't break his heart.

2007-10-10T23:26:00.000-07:00

Today was funnnnnnnnnnnn.After Maths Paper 2 which I found quite do-able:) ,I went to Parkway with Aisyah Camut and Claudette .We actually went there to pick up Aisyah's younger sister from Lorna Winsto only to find that in the end,she did not go for class.yeaaah dumb.Went to find camping stuff and after that I went home to get ready to go out with Afiqah ,Nicole and Ally.

Afiqah came with Nicole and her mom and she sent us to Vivo and while waiting for Allyson ,we went to Zara and Warehouse to find for clothes.blah blah blah Ally came and we went to watch Nanny Diaries.It was supppperrr nice.heh chris evans .During the movie I was like squeling and squeezing Ally's hand every time Chris appeared.Eventhough he looked kinda Prepy ,he looked tres hot .yes i am weird like that:)

okaay so after the movie,we went to paper 1?or something like that to find teen vogue,and went up to the pool which was cordoned off and eventually ended up in Toys 'R Us.So we were walking in the guy who worked there wanted to 'check in' our bags so we gave it to him.He said 'make sure you have yr wallet,your boyfriend's picture.' And I gave him this weird face and said 'neeh,you can have the bag' ahaha and i walked in.

I tell you,you should've seen how high I was in Toys 'R Us .I started fighting with Allyson with the light sabers with the double ends .haha it was so fun .It was definitely what I needed especially after the exams:) Thanks you guys for the really good day out.And then took the MRT to Kembangan and went to granda's house.It's his birthday so,HAPPY BIRTHDAY DATUK!ily:)

All in all today was great destressing:)

I should've started running a long long time ago.

2007-10-09T20:01:00.000-07:00

My last Mathematics Paper's tomorrow.I know I can do this.And it's freedom after my last paper on thursday which is Malay listening.MIN! Ben&Jerry's and gossips ,ahaha and we can talk and talk and talk about yr DKNYFOB. Ahahah.I hope and pray that tomorrow's paper would be do-able I need to at least pass the overall results of all the papers and get into the good class.I can do this.

I think out of all the exams I had the EOYs this year are the ones that have put so much pressure on to me.I'm just glad that it's going to be over on friday.All overrrr.Then comes next year,groaaan.

good luck:)

triggy triggy.wwiiigggeeeey/

2007-10-07T10:36:00.000-07:00

My parents got invited by the British Trade people to cities around the UK for some medical thingy.So they left for London this morning about 6 am plus.So yeah ,got home went to sleep again and heeerrreee i am.I gotta study literature now.I keep wasting time and...shit man my sentences are all so______ i am so not a morning person.

but god does it feel so good.

2007-10-04T11:01:00.000-07:00

Done with Geography.Science tomorrow.I'm going to Tampines Library later to re-read my notes for Science and refreshen my memory.I can do this.I think I'm a born nerd.haha.Malcolm was being a major weirdo yesterday again and it's Man Utd, Malcolm not Arsenal ;) ahaha.So yes,basketball game for the 17th is set.One day before camp to east coast.rawrness.

What is your favorite song of all time?
Three Cheers For Five Years -Mayday Parade

Desktop or Laptop?
Desktop

What is your favorite color?
Black.

beach or mountain?
Beach

Favourite Sport
Soccer and Dance

er that's all fer now i guess.I need to rush off to be the nerd now. I CAN DO THIS
ahaha.

The day I never thought I'd get through ,I got over you.

2007-10-03T20:17:00.000-07:00

After school went to the library with Aisyah,Claudette and Allyson.Her cousin Dylan came afterwards but the other one Bradley didn't cause he had tuition or something like that .I had a major headache so I couldn't really study much but i managed in the end somehow .Dylan was very funny though so it kinda lightened up the mood.Plus he totally help me and Allyson jack one of our seniors.I swear she was so annoying.My sarcasm ticked her off quite a bit too.haha.after that i gave her this too-sweet smile and rolled my eyes.Left the library with Allyson and Dylan.Took bus with Dylan and HOMEEEEE.I went to sleep for 2 whole hours.urgh.

Geography tomorrow.I'm prepared ,at least I think I am.I believe I can do it.haha. I CAN DO IT.i will not let anything distract me.not even this stupid headache i've been having for the past two days .Anyways exams are almost over and then there's the Basketball game on the 17th with Claudette,Malcolm and possibly Allyson and then after that it's Claudette's Halloween Party either at Changi Beach Club or Changi Sailing Club .so yeah .rewards! hahaha.

okay so nothing much for now.good luck muggers(:

cause we lost it all
nothing lasts forever
i'm sorry i can't be perfect.

I suggest you grab your ankles and kiss your ass goodbye.

2007-10-02T21:01:00.000-07:00

Today was great .After school went to the library with Claudette and Nicole to study .On the way back met up with nicolette and megan and megan,claudette and i took the wrong bus home.my fault ahah.sorry.anyways so yeah ,min you need alot of cheering up to do yeah?don't think about him already ,he's not worth your time. Let everything go .He's just going to fuck up everything else.

Going to the library with Allyson tomorrow along with her cousins Dylan and someone else ,i forgot his name.hahaha.anyways.go muggers.

watch her fall.

2007-10-01T09:41:00.000-07:00

self-pity ,makes me want to laugh .

I won't let this go.

2007-09-26T18:52:00.000-07:00

back from 3 hours of studying at the library with Allyson(: I studied everything for Science except for one chapter.Studied Malay.Will be going to the library with Afiqah and Allyson tomorrow.MUG MUG MUG.but after all of this is over,time to PAAARRRTTAAAAAAYYYYY. There's Claudette's Halloween Party coming up after the exams.awesome ,-starts to think about what to go as- .

I think it's gonna be at Changi Beach Club or something like that.even more awesome.anyways.I'm gonna be on the computer less than before so yeah...updates later.

another night,another dream wasted on you.

2007-09-24T22:13:00.000-07:00

I sit in class and that look back all of you.Practically oblivious to me.Not that I mind, it's just that sometimes I wonder how you all can be so happy all the time.Sometimes,I just wish I could be like that.

So today today today,where do I begin? It started out okay ,and it just went downhill from there I guess. So,I was quiet and just very melancholy and not really listening much and tried to ignore as much things as I could .Min ,Gayle and Chermaine noticed so I just told them I was fine and stuff like that.Talked to Gayle during free period and stuff like that.So,I'll just go about writing my poems,stories and little notes to people and pretend to be satisfied.God,help me .

Council stuff after school.World,you have officially met yr trainee councillor. More duties yet again.and again I will say,God,help me. okay so,I feel them eyelids getting heavier and heavier.so,goodnight,let me be miserable for now(: MADHAN,I'M BETTER AT BEING SARCASTIC THAN YOU.DEAL WITH IT BOY(: AHHAHAHA

the fighting rages on and on
to challenge me,
you must be strong

we'll never be far apart.

2007-09-23T23:56:00.000-07:00

hello world.anyways,had a great night with Dad's friends from France .We all went for dinner at Hyatt .So yeah,opportunity to dress up and stuff.eh yeaaaah.was talking to Min before I showered to go out.And we both noticed how much things have changed and how so many people have changed and how much they really suck right now .Well ,all i can say is that time brings change.

anyways,to my sister all the way in Scotland a.k.a The Preety Sister,haha ...study hard
don't eat too much ,I know you cook well lah but take care of yourself and get the pictures of the guys you mentioned rofl.[I'm sure you know what 'rofl' means now right?!?!] Manchester United vs Chelseas match now,but i'm not watching it.Pity.But I'll just get results tomorrow from Wee Ling or from my uncle or something.

life's a bore.and i need more sleep so,night(:

how do you do it?you're my heroine.

2007-09-19T15:53:00.000-07:00

I overslept.Again.I need to sleep earlier,I always almost fall asleep in class nowadyas.sucks.anyways.Science,Geog and Malay papers were okay.Must do well. I nneed better results,my hunger for them is growing .I could have had more As for the last test I had 3 As could have had 5 As so yeah I need at least an improvement to pull my results up.

I'm going to get catch up on my sleep now.Hah.It's only on Wednesdays and Fridays that I get to sleep in the afternoon.haha.so yeah.more updates later.I'll be updating my Quizilla soon(: Happy Birthday MADHAN!

I've been up late writing books;
all about heroes and crooks.

ALLYSON EH!

2007-09-16T22:25:00.000-07:00

ALLYSON-BIRTHDAY GIRL and me.

HAHA.

we are the monsters under yr bed.

Shriveena and my gold-fish lips.

Ian,Sha,Sasa

SANTI plus Sasa.

LPB

Being stupid.again.

Night walk where it all got a little more scary.

GISEEEELLLLLEEEE!

sandwiched.

The best kind of make-up.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLYSON!ILY.THANKS FER THE PARTY BABE,IT WAS A BLAST.ESP THE NIGHT WALKN AND THE CARETAKER THING! AHAHA.I COULDN'T REALLY SLEEP THAT NIGHT.I WAS RUNNING FROM ROOM TO ROOM,HAHAHA.HOPE YOU LIKE THE PRESENT <3

critical acclaim.

2007-09-14T21:20:00.000-07:00

I am very happy with myself.I not only passed Math but I did well 32/35 huuuugeeeee improvement from failing all the time.Heh.Once I got my results from Miss T I stared at the paper and jumped up and down.I text messaged mom,dad and sister in Scotland,and yeaaah.haha I'm really happy.And now,I've gotta maintain this kinda mark so I'm going to practice more and more each day.

Had choreography with Mr Fen today,it was okay.But I was kinda exhausted after that and fell asleep in the car on the way back.Going to get Allyson's present tomorrow.Can't wait fer tomorrow.Her party is like salvation hahah.not makinng much sense whatsoever.

crush my heart with your new heels.

2007-09-12T19:37:00.000-07:00

Instead of having 2 tests today,Cikgu sprung us a surprise and gave us a test and so we had 3 tests today.They were all okay I guess.So after that headed home.Saw Dominic ,but just walked right past him,heh yeah.Got home.lunched and slept.Tomorrow's dance.As long as its fun then yeahh.school was okay all in all i guess.

I've got nothing much to update on so yeah I'll just type out random stuff that comes to my mind.I want red sneakers.And I still can't believe that I missed the Funeral For A Friend gig.And I think Gerard Way and Boyce Avenue's version of 'Umbrella' is so much better than the original.Nicole has nothing to do but annoy me daily but I don't really mind and then we'll start 'fighting' about Iero and whatsover.

And I'm sick with flu.I slept on the couch last night.I stayed up till 1+ am.I'm going to study more than usual so that I can party hard on Saturday and not feel guilty about it.haha.And this is getting too random right now.I've got choreography on Friday,yeaaaah.Mr Fen's coming to do the choreography,he's seriously funny.kinda.
Intensive training is in October.That's all fer now(:

spare me just,
three last words.
'I love you' is all she heard.
I'll wait for you,but I
can't wait forever.

strength of the world.

2007-09-11T22:28:00.000-07:00

avenged sevenfold(:

Yesterday were my parent's wedding anniversary. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY mom and papa! ILY. and thanks fer the dinner at SPIZE.

tomorrow,is the Math test and English free writing.hope i really do well.MUST.I'm starting to worry a lot about the outcomes.But I just have to get my mind off them and concentrate on my studies for now.I still do not know what to get Allyson for her birthday,might go out on either Friday or Saturday itself to look for her present.Either way,I hope she'll like whatever I get for her.

I took a different bus home today.I saw Faizal on the way home.lol. yeaah.I didn't go for BC today.hahaha.I used that time to do Maths and catch up on rest,I've been really exhausted these past few days.Tomorrow I gotta spend my time wisely.I sound like some person nagging at their child,but I really don't want to regret not spending my time doing something that might help me in my exams and tests.

School was fine today.

That's it for now,i guess.

September 11th.Spare a minute of silence for the ones that were lost and for their loved ones.

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never knowing who to cling to
When the rain set in
And I would have liked to have known you
But I was just a kid
Your candle burned out long before
Your legend ever did.

Loneliness was tough
The toughest role you ever played
Hollywood created a superstar
And pain was the price you paid
Even when you died
Oh the press still hounded you

on my own.

2007-09-10T19:00:00.000-07:00

just got back from tuition,Having major cramps heh.going out for dinner and not going for ballet.Tomorrow's Science SPA.So gotta study a bit for it.I'm not in much mood to do so though,but luckily already read up on it last week.Just gonna memorise some key points and that's it.

My Sister sent me a text message all the way from Scotland,telling me to work hard and stuff,it being the first day of a new term,She really wants me to do well and so does everyone else.I can't let anyone down.I'm cutting back on computer time and stuff.so it's like going into rehab for too much computer.lol.

Saturday's Allyson's birthday party(: shwweeet.We are so gonna play 'Pin the hair on Bong' haha.inside joke.You guy will get pictures from me of that day so yeah.I missed the Funeral For A Friend gig last Saturday.I know Megadeth's coming here.Not that big of a fan but hey,great music.School was okay today.Until Mr K caught me outside class.urgh.I love the 2/4 table people.heh.you know who you are(: anyways.Allyson's party is gonna be great.Too bad her brother's band,Trella is not gonna play,they're really good.If anyone wants to check em out I have one of their demos with me.so yeah.Tag me and ask me for it when I'm online on MSN or something.

I slept at 2 last night.And I was hyper this morning,and my whole body's aching.I need to lie down badly.I miss talking to Shriv,Gayleeeee. haha.We hardly talk nowadays because of the lack of free periods in school.lol.

Anyways,gotta shower now before i go out.taaaa,

and that was all she wrote.

don't let it slip right through your hands.

2007-09-08T03:07:00.000-07:00

I look and feel very tired.I don't want school to start.And I wish I could turn back time.I think I need more alone time.I really think I do,because right now I just can't decide.

Punched someone? : Yes.
Been to a funeral? : Yes.
Ice cream flavour: Chocolate.
Most Favorite color: Black/Green/Brown -The few most boring colours.
Best Friends: Shriveena,Gayle,SANTI-s
Cheated on someone? : No.
Do you ever lie about your age? : No.
Do you shop at Hollister? : I Wish.We don't have that here though.
Has one of your friends everstabbed you in the back? : Yes,too many to keep track of.
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? : yes.
Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head? : Yes.

I am emotionally unbalanced right now.I think I'll just stay up longer to do Maths,write some stuff to get distracted. Too many things on my mind. But,guess you'll never know. Yes,I'm refering to a certain 'you' .Well,Gayle on Monday you'll see me with horrible eye bags.Not that it bothers me much. I owe Natasha a hug and everyone else ,a smile.

I shall bid bye-bye for now.sigh.the story of my pathetic life.My thought are being flooded with too many 'if-s' right now.

i won't wait forever.

2007-09-06T00:44:00.000-07:00

WEDNESDAY,

Dad woke me up at 6.30 am i think,haha I was supposed to wake up around 7-7.30 am.showered and got ready to go to esplanade,parents+younger sister sent me to City Hall MRT and when everyone gathered,we the Dance Club members plus gabrielle,azmina,sharmini and clara headed for the esplanade.The Hip-Hop class was great and....interesting.. ahha there were guys and one of the girls who looked kinda awkward.heh.you guys should've seen it but then again maybe not,im being mean.heh.sorry.

I really had fun at the Hip-Hop workshop ahha.The steps were like whoa.the trainers were orsm and oh yeah,all the participants received a one day pass to dance at Studio Wu.awesome.I.will.go.period.haha

Anyways,since my sister has gone to Scotland,I immediately am swung into being the elder sister now.I've started doing chores [shocker there] and take responsibility for certain things.In some ways, yeah it seems kinda unfair that it happened,i mean i knew it was going to happen but I didn't know that it would have such a different impact on me.I see myself being my elder sister,buying food from Suntec for mom and sister or smth then come home and sleep all day[another thing me and my elder sister have in common] .But,I guess I'll just have to get used to the fact that i have to grow up someday and apparently it starts now.hah.

My posts are getting even more boring by every minute heh.bummer.(:

Imma stick it out to the end.

2007-09-03T01:28:00.000-07:00

My sister left fer Scotland about an 2 hours ago ago.I cried.She hugged me.It was a little awkward now that I think of it,since we aren't professionals at the 'showing affection' thing.For one of the few times in my life,my dad cried.My mom cried.Everyone cried,I sound very dramatic,bear with me. I hugged my dad and mom and my older sister.It's a little awkward hugging my older sis and Dad.My dad ,is a serious kinda man.But, deep inside you know he cares.

My older sister gave me a Tiffany & Co necklace just before we left for the airport.Sigh ,and I made her a card so did my younger sister. And,I meant what I said in the card and I hopre she knows that too.

I have tuition tomorrow.so yeah.nights?

What will it take to make you come back,now i told you what it is,it just ain;t like that.

2007-08-29T23:32:00.000-07:00

been feeling kinda down these past 2 days,I'm feeling reminiscent.I don't really like going through these feelings.And I think im going crazy or something.I've been listening to Elliot Yamin's 'Wait For You' on repeat.I wouldn't usually do that,but i just can't help it.I think I'm keeping to myself too much nowadays.I've been so stoned,trying so hard to keep my head and mind in class rather than waste my time writing stories and writing crap in my notebook.

I am very pathetic at this point in time.Too much wallowing in self-pity.ha.I've got so much to say right now but,I just am too lazy and crashed out to type it all out.Come to think of it again, I think I'll just post it on my other blog the next time im online.yes,disappointment.Oh,boohoo.

Can't wait to see the SANTI's and shriveena and gayle tomorrow.I know they'll somehow make things better(:

spare me just 3 last words,'I love you' is all she heard.

2007-08-29T19:39:00.000-07:00

So,let's start the entry with,School was okay.I was very tired though and throught the second hald of the day i was very quiet and shalyn thout i was angry with her.Heh.I wasn't angry at you Shalyn(: Don't worry lah,go ahead with your plan.ahaha. In Science,I broke a beaker.hah. yeah.my mind wasn't in class today i guess.I was so stoned.

After school,while waiting for my sister to pick me up to go to the bank,I was talking to DJ.yeah then after that went to Parkway for 3 hrs and saw The Plastics[Min's new creation] haha.I was like Oh,whatever...had lunch with sister at Long John's and headed for home,HEY PRESTO! I'm right in front of the computer.and doing Faiyaz's birthday present and doing some personalized cards for teacher's day.And,i know i need more sleep.AH,school holidays next week.Hip-hop dance workshop next week(:

one and only.- imma stick it out to the end.

2007-08-27T22:58:00.000-07:00

so on saturday, i went out with my cousins for the night.Initially,I didn't want to go because I was in a bad mood and knowing me,I would somehow spoil everyone else's mood.but hold your horses there,I was wrong.Me and Cousins had a BLAST.it was good finally catching up with them after a while.So first we went for dinner.Decided that we wanted Arab food.It was really good, ahh,i feel like having it again hahaha,then we decided to go for desert at McCafe at East Coast.

So after we ordered our food we started talking then Abang Aizat started telling ghost stories of how his friends and him would go to OCH,Kranji and places like that at night..They saw quite freaky stuff i guess.BUT,it's for you to believe or not..Abang Hilman was telling stupid jokes..made me and afiq laugh non stop for a few minutes.

Looking back on this,I know that my family will always be there even if it is the most cliche-est thing to say now but you'll see that it's a fact,in time.so,yeah here are some pictures of that day.

My bad mood was subsiding here.

If i trust in you oh please,don't run and hide.

once the food came,i was a-okay.

Abang Aizat being his clowny self.

i just remembered i have not had dinner yet.

I don't know why,everytime i'm in a bad mood i feel like slapping her.lol

After dinner.

Bliss.

Afiq,Dafinah,ME,Abang Hilman

Paramore listening time!

At 12+ am

and my stomach is sick,and it's all in my head.

2007-08-24T23:07:00.000-07:00

School was hokay-dokay..I was half falling asleep almost every hour or something haha.i definitely need more rest.I totally love the SANTI-s right now(: shalyn/afiqah/allyson.i swear,the are the best(: and shalyn,we'll always be here for you no matter what okay.and don't cry over a bastard.stupid uni-brow.

after school i went for choreography,the guy whose our choreography is Mr Fen,he's super fun ah.and the dance is a joint thing with the MCS girls.it's quite fun(: the thing is for next yr's chinese new year.lol so yeaaah.intensive training starts next year?hahah.By the end my feet were all black because i was dancing barefoot and didn't bother bringing ballet shoes.ahah.

nothing much nowadays,taaaaa

Tomorrow's Trella's 'last gig' before going for a hiatus and i don't think im able to go:( major bummer.

i can feel the pressure
it's getting closer
we're better off without you.

It's all we need now so die romantic.

2007-08-22T18:58:00.000-07:00

it's an all time high.sometimes i sit back an think and wonder if this whole thing was a lie.and whether i should stick to being in the background or to speak up and hurt your feelings.Nowadays i ignore you,and possibly you're thinking 'I didn't do anything wrong,so why the fuck is she ignoring me?' .Well,maybe it's just cause you're too oblivious- even to your ownself to even notice what's wrong.Do you need me to draw it out for you?here let me get you some paper.psh.

A few us take a glance at you and we figure that you aren't what you seem.Yeah,you hang out with each other but inside you just feel like ripping each other's guts out.Day by day I get even more pissed with you.I don't want anything to do with you.And I don't care who you claim to be either,because my life would be so much better without you.Don't make it seem like you're the victim here,telling us that 'Oh,I'm always the one to....' please.don't embarrass yourself even further.We all know you too want nothing to do with us.so let it be.

I don't know how people manage to stand you.When you're closest friends are your best enemies.And the picture that the 4 of us took together last year will be torn apart and thrown into the bin.Yesterday night,as I was about to go asleep,the picture fell from my wall and I decided to just leave it on the floor,beacuse i guess now it's not worth anything right?

XxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXx
school was hokay.shriveena spent time during PE to continue the Jackson+Kalyn story because Ms.H wasn't here today.hung out with the SANTI-s during Malay today me/Afiqah/Shalyn/Allyson. ahaha we're gonna get t-shirts done and we're gonna call Shalyn's then-ex boyfriend/now boyfriend again if he treats her badly or something.hah.

didn't get any results back today though.sadly.i think we might be getting geography bak tomorrow.i hope so.anyways shout-out to Shalyn/Afiqah/Allyson HEARTS!

i'm sorry that will never change.

2007-08-20T19:31:00.000-07:00

ok so,i posted an entry filled with rage and anger in my other blog anyways.I updated my quizilla.School was ..okay i guess.got back some results and stuff.oh and change of plans with umar and khamarul.Khamarul can't make it on Wednesday so he they were going on Thursday but i have dance on thursday,so instead of meeting him this week im meeting him during September.

Then i get more rest i guess haha...theres always a plus side.Oh,Claudette's dad got her season passes to watch the Singapore Slingers play.haha it'll be fun i think haha i'm not really a huge fan of basketball but theres always a time to start.Oh and then might be bringing along Malcolm to one of the games if i'm not wrong.

Man,i am feeling so crashed.i need more rest.i have ballet after this.sigh better go have dinner and wash up and stuff.had lit test today.

the flame we had
is burning out.

.

2007-08-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

you said you'd cry a thousand rivers,
and now you're swimming for the shore

HI hello.okay.

black eyes and bleeding lips.

2007-08-18T23:29:00.000-07:00

boredom is killing me,doesn't fail each time.I was so exhausted that after ballet and lunch,i collapsed on my bed.lazy arse.im getting hungry now,some random useless facts.im just stoning and staring at the laptop screen.sis's is leaving for Scotland on 2nd September.there's an Manchester United vs Manchester City match tomorrow.as far as possible i am going to watch it.

CAs are over.I'm meeting Umar and Khamarul at Tampines on Wednesday:) Man,i miss them so much,it's been so long since i last saw them.3 old friends meeting up again after about 1-2 years or so:) anyways- ALLYSON! ON THE OTHER HAND! safith's part hahha.we shall make those shirts eh allyson!haha.

dinnertime-

once a whore ,you're nothing more.

2007-08-18T01:14:00.000-07:00

i was going to go to Deafcon 5 but change of plans anyways,allyson has been so sweet ..trying to get me tickets and all that.ily allyson.Trella ella ella eh. hahah.anyways went to the science center after our last paper which was maths.It was quite fun only bcause in the bus i started doing stupid actions while lip-syncing 'Misery Business' by Paramore and 'Time After Time' Quietdrive's version and made Shriveena laugh.My stomach hurts.I've been laughing the whole day.

Hanging out with Gayle/Allyson/Shriveena cheered me up a lot.thanks you guys.I tell you we could be so random.Allyson and I were talking about soccer players and F1 racers hahah and certain people hahah.it's fun.Shriveena's MSN is totally screwed,so no dosage of major randomness from her.Gayle is very quiet tonight haha.anyways,school is kinda screwed up.Victoria and me don't get along well anymore.I seriously don't care much anymore.And she starts bitching about just because i didn't want a magazine cover.GEE,childish much.whatever.I just need to get this anger off my chest.

By the end of the excursion all of us,ok mainly me and shriveena were crashed .we fell asleep in the bus.Shriveena's head was lolling all over the place ahah then it was my turn.anyways updated my stories on Quizilla.check them out:)im outta here.

HI RAZZ(: ROFL.

Second chances they don't never matter,
people never change
Once a whore, you're nothing more,
I'm sorry that'll never change
And about forgiveness,
we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey,
but I passed up, now look this way!

Misery Business-Paramore

misery business.

2007-08-16T00:10:00.000-07:00

i LOVE The Beatles/Paramore/Aiden at the moment.hahah. anyways,change of topic.
i've been talking to mike ,chris ,kyle for the past few days and they're really nice people very funny most of the time.got back science results... they were quite good 24/30 i got back one part of my Malay paper 20/30 boderline 20s ...means i gotta score really well for the 2nd part and my composition to score at least an A2 .

another day in school tomorrow.urgh.and i have dance tomorrow.great.one whole fracken long day.whatever.short post.TAHHHH

hey ,You've gotta hide your love away.

2007-08-12T20:40:00.000-07:00

still pretty much in The Beatles mood.went swimming did a hell load of laps and im so crashed right now.haha.I finally have Quietdrive's version of 'Time after time' ..thanks min!haha..heard it eons ago:)Tonight's the Manchester United Match!and im wearing my jersey hahaha.yeah lame i know.but for the heck of it..GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED!

tomorrow's another day at school sigh and i have a geog test too.oh,the wonders of being in school.just hope it passes quickly.ain't got much to say today,unfortunately.Oh,i added some new stories to my Quizilla so go check em out and rate!the link to the site is under my links...Duh.

anyways,i'm getting kinda frustrated right now..don't really wanna elaborate.so ciao!

you said go slow,
i fall behind.
The second hand unwinds.

Ticket to ride.

2007-08-11T20:45:00.000-07:00

the beatles:) I'm in The Beatles mood/mode ..been watching all their videos and they are awesome ..eventhough they no longer exist and stuff ,but they were LEGENDS.okay fine,it is a little weird/unusual for someone my age to be listening to them but i can't help it.I grew up listening to The Beatles. They were the best.

EPL starts today.I can't tell you how happy I am...I've been in soccer deprivation. Manchester United plays on Sunday:) Ah,the pure bliss of watching the team play during the new season..heh.Soccer is the one thing besides my friends and music that cheers me up.

anyways,i've got more revision to do..gotta stop wasting my time before i start feeling guilty or something like that.I need lessons on time management ,psh as if that will work.gotta break this bad habit.more next time ,sorry for the short and boring posts,kinda useless isn't it?but i just felt like typing.

Die Romantic-Aiden

2007-08-10T13:11:00.000-07:00

i have been pissing so many people off these past few days.sorry I've been on an anger stampage.I hate it as much as you do.But no matter what i do ,i just can't control my emotions.I'm not going to Kusu Island instead my sisters chose to go to Haw Par Villa.uhuh yeah.I don't know why.

I opted out of the little outing.I'm too tired and I need to catch up on my Geography/Maths.NEED TO BUCK UP -majorly. this one's going to be another short post,i've got nothing much to say.And I can't be bothered either.so,whatever..enjoy the rest of the day,i guess.

warn your warmth to turn away
here it's december,everyday
press your lips to the sculptures
and surely you'll stay

bites, bruises and scars

2007-08-09T19:42:00.000-07:00

i've been a raging wave of anger and frustration for the past few hours. and i've been so moodless and feeling so down.i feel like eating chocolates all day long.that would be bliss.puurree bliss.might be going to Kusu Island tomorrow if everything goes according to plan.An attempt to strengthen the bonds between my sisters and i.sigh.i think i suck at that.

Yesterday my sisters and I had a 'slumber party' with the theme Pink.i ws like WTH?!?!i have to wear pink?and stuff like that.ahah but it was fun cause we never really done stuff like slumber parties and stuff and we're doing it because my elder sister is going off to Scotland in a few more weeks.anyways,pictures wil be posted up next time,soon i promise.

slept late,didn't wash off my make-up because i couldn't be bothered and i was too crashed to do it.im not really making sense right now.blah.

it was an honest mistake

my sins,they watch me leave.

2007-08-07T23:48:00.000-07:00

today was okay i guess.not much happened.anyways...Birthday shoutout to Malcolm a.k.a zombie/chikopek XD haha.HAPPY BIRTHDAY MALCOLM.How does being 18 feel? *cough*old man*cough* hahaa.

Tomorrow we have to be in red/white get-up.School's open for only 3 hours and then it's back to the home and back to studying for the CAs.Just managed to finish my Geography essay questions and then i'll hand it in tomorrow.

anyhoo.updates laterrrr.

some things i've gotta get off my chest.

2007-08-05T18:34:00.000-07:00

just came back from JB ,it was like a total of 6 hours trip and i bought a Man Utd magazine posters/stickers of the team included haha.i feel like a kid again haha.been pretty moody these days.anyways ,thanks gayle and shriveena for having to put up with my constant PMS and moodswings and all my bitching.ILY.

i gotta file up some stuff from home ec.blardy hell i'm to lazy to do it. one thing about me is that i never file my things unless im forced to. My papers are all over the place and most of the time,when i need them badly i wouldnt be able to find them .it's one of the bad habits ill never be able to stop soon.today's hal's birthday.HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!sorry i couldn't spend today with you.

i'm thinking of redecorating my room..like maybe an all red theme to represent Man Utd or something.ahhaha that would be weird though.i dont know..but i won't do it now cause i hardly have the time anyways.and i'm a fan of last minute work .another bad habit that's hard to break it's like my best friend.tomorrow's another day in school.damn it why does the weekend pass so fast.couldn't we have like longer hours or days for weekends?back to being miserable and even more sarcastic.joy

say goodbye to the vows you take
to the life you make
to the hearts you break
and all the cyanide you drank.

Beast and the harlot.

2007-08-05T00:44:00.000-07:00

a7x mood.ha ha. anyways ,the day has been pretty much boring and stuff. boredom kills severely.i'm doing bloody home ec now.sucks.i mean it's just cooking so what's with all the prep work.urgh damn it. I'm sick of doing so much schoolwork and I'm just waiting to get out of secondary school because i don't really like it.call it teen angst or PMS or whatever you want ,but i hate the going-ons in the school.

Been busy for the whole week. Im just wondering how long i can put up with all the stress and the shit going on in school.cliques,gossips,stabbing of backs..why can't they just f-king leave me alone.i keep telling myself 'it's just 2 more years' but 2 years seems like a lifetime.i just keep wishing it'll past quickly without much pain.im literally begging for it.

im racking my brains on something to write to lighten up the mood now.but ,i can't so i guess i'll stop here and start being sarcastic from now onwards till i'm satisfied.psh.
i am so lame.

you give love a bad name.

2007-08-03T18:57:00.000-07:00

I'm in a bon jovi mood.lol.anyways.glad school's over for the week.i can't really stand it there.it's the fracken weekend and im at home.sigh..i need to get out more eh?haha.school was alright, i guess.Mdm W came into class and started accusing the class so when i couldn't stand it any longer i confronted -nicely/sarcastically and you should have seen her face when i finished.she totally backed off and talked nicely after that.i was effing pissed/PMS-ing

i seriously need to control my temper, but sometimes having my temper helps because then i get to tell of people who are really unreasonable to other people .Ally and Jill love it haha.

i just spent 2 hours catching up on sleep.i'm so deprived of it.had a good workout during dance yesterday.im gonna work out later.yeah,kinda unbelievable right ?since im such a lazy ass.haha.gott catch up on schoolwork/revision/homework/tuitionwork/sleep .sucks big time.

i forgot to bring my math exercise book to school.psh.anyways.time to socialise -bye.

here i go,
so dishonestly leave a note

Thinking about thinking with you.

2007-08-02T18:31:00.000-07:00

just cam back from dance.suppppeerrrr tiring.haha.Science experiment turned out quite good.i think i got 3/5 .today's gonna be over soon :) haha almost another week gone.If i'm not wrong i might be having a National Day Dinner over at Bukit Batok,they probably set it earlier because everyone might be going away for the next weekend.hahah 8 COURSE MEAL..heheh.i go for the food.the entertainment is kinda _______. fill in with appropriate word.lol

Im about to write a Frank Iero story for nicole.haha.yes,it's quite an obssession.. 19 more days till Umar's homecoming.Khamarul come let's go plan everything hhaha.lunch or something aight? haha.

My mom and dad are going to see the new Mercedes C-Class.Apparently its invitation only due to overwhelming response.I saw the model of it on the net.it was effing orsm.i don't mind if my dad actually gets it.it has like a normal mode and a sports mode.Theres bluetooth in there car.bliss.

there's a SC test tomorrow.and then more tests starting from next week. Dammit.

off to write nicole's story-

Everyone's a let down,
it just depends on how far down they can go

sorry no frank iero pic today.haha.

he's gonna kick your effing ass.

2007-07-31T23:24:00.000-07:00

i was late for school today.damn it.if it happens again i am so dead cause then i hv to go for DC and i'd be too lazy to do it.yeah me and my lazy ass.i've got remedial tomorrow.

today after school headed to Tampines with claudette..we hung out,jhad lunch walked around to MNG and stuff like that.then we ran into one of the school girls we never hang out with or talk to but we just say the occasional 'hi' she got so clingy..we gave her some lame shit excuse and managed to get away from her.it was so suffocating.then went for class,and i got so fed up i felt like slapping everybody.

i've got so many tests coming up and hardly have the time to study,guess i'll just have to make time-stating the obvious.i've been slacking so much that it sickens even me.yeeaaaahh.OH,and i finished reading Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows.haha like in 2-3 days.yeah.and the book was the reason why i was late for school today..Wonderful eh?haha.

in the middle of a gunfight,
in the center of a restaurant
they say,'Come with your arms raised high.'
well,they're never gonna get me
i'm like a bullet through a flock of doves.

all these things i hate revolve around me.

2007-07-30T23:24:00.000-07:00

damn it,why didnt you get it.i don't like you either.

anyways,today was okay/tiring ..but nothing much happened.there's a science test tomorrow.i think i'll do okay,so,school-tuition-home-ballet.i hate mondays so much.it's like i don't have enough time to rest.daarrrn.anyways,handed in my essay on friday but then mrs.g told us,at the last minute we could hand it in on friday.im like 'WTH!' haha.i practically rushed through it for nothing.

tomorrow i'm having classes at BC..and i love it for one reason. min/shriveena/gayle/afiqah know.haha. i love tuesdays [: haha.i just hope there's no remidial or something tomorrow.dance rehearsals for NEXT YEAR's CNY start August 24th.Umar's coming on the 21st of August.Yay-ness.then me,khamarul and umar can go hand at tampines mall or something for lunch and catch up.i miss both of them man.haha.i used to pinch umar's cheeks alot.haha.and he used to call me 'tomboy'..actually,he still does from time to time.hah.which is kinda inappropriate.but,heck.haha.

oh yeah,im halfway through the new Harry Potter book.haha yes i know im a little late and stuff haha.i just got it okaay.don't bother telling me who dies because,I ALREADY KNOW.haha

by the way ______ i know something you don't so f-off.

Give 'Em Hell Kid.

please be there for me,cause i need you more than anything for now.

2007-07-27T23:54:00.000-07:00

i ended up sleeping at 2 plus am last night/this morning ..and the weirdest part about sleeping at 2am is that,the next morning,you feel totally hyper,i.am.not kidding...i was jumping up and down and running around class shouting and laughing at random things. it was the weirdest and scariest thing you would see.

was hanging out with Annisa and the other NCC people and we were talking about people and stuff and yeah we were lazing around until they had to fall in.anyways,im going to be Opera Estate Primary School tomorrow for C.I.P ..will be there with shi mei and claudette for like four hours.at least i can obtain a few points for it later on.

had very random conversations with nicole about frank iero/mcr/gc/billy but i was too lazy to type much XD sorry nicole.

planning to fix my Swiss Army watch one of these days.damn it,i feel like having lasagna and sushi.anyways,random stuff.sighness-it's like 11.50 and i've been sleeping late 5 days in a row.so i gotta go catch up on sleep.

the taste of ink is getting old
it's four o'clock in the fucking
morning.

you're never gonna fit in much kid.

2007-07-26T23:12:00.000-07:00

zomg I'm falling asleep and i haaavvve to finish up my essays to be sent in for competition tomorrow.I'm soo dead.someone help me.My eyes are barely open.damn it.i need caffeine/chocolate .the music i'm listening to is not helping either..nothing is.ARGH. i have to pull through tonight.I NEED TO. but nobody would actually stay up till 1+ am with me and try to keep me awake or buy me coffee.haha.

tomorrow's another long day.dance was very exhausting today..i couldn't really keep my balance after the turns and all that,i was feeling very dizzy and felt like i was about to collapse.anyways more later.. i have to finish up my essays.

Never caught my breath
every second I'm without you
I'm a mess

Oh,sweet child 'O mine

2007-07-25T21:48:00.000-07:00

yeah yeah i do listen to GUNS 'N ROSES. anyways,today was okay shriveena wasn't feeling well during Geography so me and gayle took her down to the GO and waited for her mum.Hope you're feeling better Shriveena[: ..then me,carmen,chermain and adeline stayed back to do our English while Ally and Dalia did their councillor duty for the DC people.got home and slept ..i've been so exhausted lately ,haven't had enough sleep so yeah i slept from 5plus until about 8..that's a marathon man.

need more sleep.i always say it but never do it haha.there's dance tomorrow,i think it'll be okay and i get to get myself to be more active.I'm changing my blogskin to the previous MCR one that i had before.I get bored so easily and i realise how random Igen/Skyren is haha.so that was a useless fact.

anyways gotta go Math-ing now.joy.don't you just love sarcasm?hmph.

What hurts the most,
was being so close and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could've been and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do

haha guess what, I don't like you either

2007-07-24T23:29:00.000-07:00

-the post has been moved to my xanga-

I hope you had the
time of your life